Good Things Come To Those That Wait

Do you ever sit and simply wonder Why? Why didn't this happen? Why can't I have this? Why, why, why?!!

I've always been curious- Curious George. I have always wanted explanations for things that happen around me. There must be a reason why and I want to know. It's my nature.

Lately I have come to realize that not always am I going to get the answers that I want. There are many "Why's?" that have been left unanswered and too much of my dislike, I have had to come to terms with not knowing the reasoning behind past events. It's time to accept reality and know that not everything will go my way. I have learned to realize that things happen for a reason and while I may not know the reason that instant, it will all make sense in the future.

For the time being I have to sit and just wait. Wait for the answers, wait for news….just wait and for those that know me well, you know I am not a very patient person.

Much Love-

XO,

George

Dating for Dummies…?

It's been a couple of weeks since I last updated my blog. Nothing major has happened in my life- which is a good thing. I am excited about my Dallas trip with the Men of Charlie's in October. It will be a blast! I have heard great things about Dallas and I cannot wait to go and experience it for myself. Alyson now lives in Dallas, so I will make it a point to visit with her and catch up. It has been years since I have last spoken to her and I'm sure there is much to catch up on. Disneyland is also coming up, which I am still on the edge about. I would love to go, but between Disneyland and Dallas it will get expensive! Stay tuned….

Family life is good and quiet, which is rare, but good!

I need to start focusing on my dating life- I don't have one! I am very guarded which in return has caused me to refrain myself from developing any type of romantic relationships. Now that I am ready to start dating, how do I begin? Is there a manual that I can read?

Help!

Much Love,

George

The Past Can’t be Re-Written

August- oy vey! I am glad you are here. July was a rollercoaster of emotions to say the least. I'm sure glad that month is behind me now. Although July was a rough month for me, I must say that it not only made me stronger as a person but I learned a lot from it and although I can't change or re-write the past, I can certainly apply my experiences into the future.

Over the last two months I lost two friends of mine; Steve and Tam unexpectedly. On top of that I had a minor financial bump, family stress and a bit of a hostile work environment. But at the end of the day, that's life and sometimes you just have to roll with the punches.

Death is a very scary thing, and I, for one, don't deal very well with it. It puts everything into perspective and all that you thought mattered, you realize that it doesn't really matter at all. You are here one day and gone the next.

It was especially hard for me because it reminded me of losing my father when I was younger. It brought back to light all the suffering, struggling and emotions of his death. I remember how hard it was on my mother, brothers and sisters. I may have only been 5, but I remember it clear as day. It was rough. It also made me mature a lot faster than your average 5 year old boy. I became my mother's rock. Listening to her cry and looking at her wipe her tears off was hard for me, but I never let her see it. Instead, I opted out to be the happy chunky little boy she's always known me to be. The last thing I wanted mom to be was sad and hurt, so I took on the role of making sure she knew she had me…no matter what. I suppose that is why losing my friends hit me harder than ever. It brought me back to my past, which I thought I had gotten over. Guess not.

At this point there is nothing that I can do but move on. Holding onto the past is not healthy. It's time to let it go and I intend to do just that.

When I had a deep conversation with my mom, she also gave me some very good advice. I need to let my guard's down- like a lot! Growing up I have had many examples of what not to do and what the consequences can be. This applies in all aspects of life; romantically, financially and day to day life. The thing that I guard the most is my heart (naturally). I have seen many friends and family go through the pain of a heart break and it scares me. As I result I have sealed of my heart off with a bucket of titanium to prevent myself from the agony. I realize that I need to let it down a little bit and learn from my own experiences and not from everyone else's.

 

That's it….for now!

Much love,

George

If you know me, then you get me!

It's been 7 months since I have last updated my blog. Man, where have I been?? This year is certainly flying by!

In new news, I turned the BIG 25 and luckily, it was accident free. Last year I fell off a stool and bruised my tailbone within an hour of the celebration and the year prior to that, well, let's just say I lasted only one hour.

Anyway, so I am 25 and I must say it isnt THAT bad! I will admit, however, that I have realized a lot of things that I never really bothered to care about before. For one, never take anyone for granted and to love and cherish those around you (family and friends). I lost two friends of mine thus far this year and that has been very sad. It puts everything into perspective. It forced me to sit back and realize just how truly blessed I am. I may not have a lot, but I'm certainly grateful for what I do have. It also has made me live life to the fullest and live with little or no regrets, which is why I have decided to just got with it. I use to care about what people would say or think about me. Now, not so much. Life is too short.

People that know me, get me. No explanations needed. They know that I am funny, quirky, quit tempered, loyal, selfish, awesome and pretty much rule! Oh, and a little full of myself too :-) BUT you know you love me!

That is all for tonight!

Much love,
George

BTW's
Some of my older posts are full of LOL's looking back!!