Good Things Come To Those That Wait

Do you ever sit and simply wonder Why? Why didn't this happen? Why can't I have this? Why, why, why?!!

I've always been curious- Curious George. I have always wanted explanations for things that happen around me. There must be a reason why and I want to know. It's my nature.

Lately I have come to realize that not always am I going to get the answers that I want. There are many "Why's?" that have been left unanswered and too much of my dislike, I have had to come to terms with not knowing the reasoning behind past events. It's time to accept reality and know that not everything will go my way. I have learned to realize that things happen for a reason and while I may not know the reason that instant, it will all make sense in the future.

For the time being I have to sit and just wait. Wait for the answers, wait for news….just wait and for those that know me well, you know I am not a very patient person.

Much Love-

XO,

George

Dating for Dummies…?

It's been a couple of weeks since I last updated my blog. Nothing major has happened in my life- which is a good thing. I am excited about my Dallas trip with the Men of Charlie's in October. It will be a blast! I have heard great things about Dallas and I cannot wait to go and experience it for myself. Alyson now lives in Dallas, so I will make it a point to visit with her and catch up. It has been years since I have last spoken to her and I'm sure there is much to catch up on. Disneyland is also coming up, which I am still on the edge about. I would love to go, but between Disneyland and Dallas it will get expensive! Stay tuned….

Family life is good and quiet, which is rare, but good!

I need to start focusing on my dating life- I don't have one! I am very guarded which in return has caused me to refrain myself from developing any type of romantic relationships. Now that I am ready to start dating, how do I begin? Is there a manual that I can read?

Help!

Much Love,

George

The Past Can’t be Re-Written

August- oy vey! I am glad you are here. July was a rollercoaster of emotions to say the least. I'm sure glad that month is behind me now. Although July was a rough month for me, I must say that it not only made me stronger as a person but I learned a lot from it and although I can't change or re-write the past, I can certainly apply my experiences into the future.

Over the last two months I lost two friends of mine; Steve and Tam unexpectedly. On top of that I had a minor financial bump, family stress and a bit of a hostile work environment. But at the end of the day, that's life and sometimes you just have to roll with the punches.

Death is a very scary thing, and I, for one, don't deal very well with it. It puts everything into perspective and all that you thought mattered, you realize that it doesn't really matter at all. You are here one day and gone the next.

It was especially hard for me because it reminded me of losing my father when I was younger. It brought back to light all the suffering, struggling and emotions of his death. I remember how hard it was on my mother, brothers and sisters. I may have only been 5, but I remember it clear as day. It was rough. It also made me mature a lot faster than your average 5 year old boy. I became my mother's rock. Listening to her cry and looking at her wipe her tears off was hard for me, but I never let her see it. Instead, I opted out to be the happy chunky little boy she's always known me to be. The last thing I wanted mom to be was sad and hurt, so I took on the role of making sure she knew she had me…no matter what. I suppose that is why losing my friends hit me harder than ever. It brought me back to my past, which I thought I had gotten over. Guess not.

At this point there is nothing that I can do but move on. Holding onto the past is not healthy. It's time to let it go and I intend to do just that.

When I had a deep conversation with my mom, she also gave me some very good advice. I need to let my guard's down- like a lot! Growing up I have had many examples of what not to do and what the consequences can be. This applies in all aspects of life; romantically, financially and day to day life. The thing that I guard the most is my heart (naturally). I have seen many friends and family go through the pain of a heart break and it scares me. As I result I have sealed of my heart off with a bucket of titanium to prevent myself from the agony. I realize that I need to let it down a little bit and learn from my own experiences and not from everyone else's.

 

That's it….for now!

Much love,

George

If you know me, then you get me!

It's been 7 months since I have last updated my blog. Man, where have I been?? This year is certainly flying by!

In new news, I turned the BIG 25 and luckily, it was accident free. Last year I fell off a stool and bruised my tailbone within an hour of the celebration and the year prior to that, well, let's just say I lasted only one hour.

Anyway, so I am 25 and I must say it isnt THAT bad! I will admit, however, that I have realized a lot of things that I never really bothered to care about before. For one, never take anyone for granted and to love and cherish those around you (family and friends). I lost two friends of mine thus far this year and that has been very sad. It puts everything into perspective. It forced me to sit back and realize just how truly blessed I am. I may not have a lot, but I'm certainly grateful for what I do have. It also has made me live life to the fullest and live with little or no regrets, which is why I have decided to just got with it. I use to care about what people would say or think about me. Now, not so much. Life is too short.

People that know me, get me. No explanations needed. They know that I am funny, quirky, quit tempered, loyal, selfish, awesome and pretty much rule! Oh, and a little full of myself too :-) BUT you know you love me!

That is all for tonight!

Much love,
George

BTW's
Some of my older posts are full of LOL's looking back!!

I've done my homework- give me my own show!

Ugh- if you know me then you know that I am OBSESSED with "reality" TV shows (thank you Bravo!). Anyway, I feel that I should have my own reality TV show. Seriously, how MAY-JAH would that be?! I swear it'll be worth watching. I have such a diverse group of friends that is certainly reality TV show worthy. Its like Logo's A-List only a little more "real"...I mean, lets face it- not every homosexual drives a Porsche Cayenne, own a home by the beach, or can afford botox! All I am saying is that if I had the chance to share my experiences about my friends and family- you'd be in for a treat ;)

How crazy is this- its December and I wore flip flops and shorts ALL weekend! Ugh- really?? Someone please call mother nature and let her know I'm pissed- I want to wear my fabulous winter clothing without sweating bullets!

I have a feeling this week is going to be a good one.
Much love,
George

2011 is the year!

Jesus, Mary and Joseph! 2010 is near to an end and 2011 is around the corner and it certainly looks promising. For starters, 2011 is the year I turn a quarter of a century- the BIG 25. I understand that for some it may not seem like a big deal, however, for me- it is a milestone; It is the year were I leave my days of immaturity and start to make decision that will affect the rest of my life. Don't be fooled now, I still may act like a princess from time to time, but for the most part- I'll try and be a good boy :0).

25 for me is the year where I want to do it ALL. I want to challenge myself and do things that are out of my realm and this may include kissing a girl, eek- LOL! All jokes aside, I have a great feeling about the upcoming year. I want to jump out of an airplane, hike the Grand Canyon, camp without the luxurious of a 4 star hotel...you get the idea. As I've shared with my friends; I want 2011 to be the year that I look back at and say "Yup, 2011 was my 25th year on this earth and it was amazing!".

I have an amazing family and a fantastic group of fabulous friends that I cannot wait to share all these aspirations for the next year with. I'm excited for 2011. I am optimistic for an amazing year full of laughter, growth and maybe even love. More to come on that.

Much love,
George

Loving the cooler weather

What a great weekend! The Men of Charlies traveled to the IGRA Rodeo Finals in Laughlin this past weekend- what a blast!! It was a much needed trip after such a long, hard week! Last week was rather eventful to say the least. I paid the consequences for some bad choices, tiresome work week, and discovered a new things/feelings.


I love traveling with my friends. Although, not going to lie, spending soo much time can get irritating at times....eek! But we certainly make the best of it and enjoy the precious moments of our youth and time together. It is always nice to see old friends from different parts of the country. I got to see Chicago, Las Vegas (and of course) the fabulous Denver MOC boys. What a trip! Nothing but shit talking, booty smackin' weekend with the boys.

AT LAST...the cool winds blow through the state of Arizona! I am loving cooler morning and evenings. It doesn't get any better than fleece PJ's, sweaters and pumpkin flavored over-priced coffee!

Much love,
George